I had the most amazing HetaOni dream ever, well it was depressing, but a fangirl would call it amazing. I WAS IN IT!!! My dreams are starting to become nice to me!! It matches my school-Jornelle personality, because
I'm smarter, and make more sense when I'm in school. Anyway, enough of me talking, let me tell you what happened!!!
In this scene, we're in the room where the safety room is, but we're not in the safety room, and Italy tries to explain to everyone of what has been happening ever since we got here. I get pissed off, and tell him off about the logistics.
Italy:.....and if I do die, I don't want you guys to be sad or cry for me
Me: But you die! Why shouldn't we?!
Italy: Because then I'll know you guys are safe when I die
Italy: Steve(this is when I found out I was dreaming, because no one called him Steve in the actual thing) won't hurt you guys anymore... You can all leave this place safely....
Me:*quietly so he couldn't hear me* Shut up
Italy: ....And none of you will have to die or get injured. That's why I'd be glad, and you should be too. And-
Me: *louder so he does here me* Shut up
Me: That still doesn't give me a good reason to not cry! Why the HELL should we be happy when you're dead?! And what about everybody else huh?! Would YOU be happy knowing that everyone you love and wanted to protect would also be sad and in insane grief because you're gone?! I KNOW I WOULDN'T! That is fucking selfish that you would only care about us, but not even the rest of the world! And why would you keep it a secret?! If we known a long time ago that you were able to do all of this.. do you think that maybe we would've tried harder to help you out?! And you know what else? I doubt that Steve would not kill us...
Italy: B-but...we made a-
Me: Oh shut the fuck up about your deal with Steve! If you made a deal with Steve to let us out in exchange your for your life, THEN WHY THE HELL WOULD HE TRY TO KILL US IF YOU'RE NOT THERE?! All this time, we've been running from and fighting Steve! And most of those times, you would find us dead, instead of seeing us die! He should be aiming for you, instead of us! After all, maybe he is killing us first so we wouldn't try to defend you from him. But you know what I think about that
Me:.....I think, that's a bunch of bullshit. And what is the fucking point of trying to get yourself killed if England is gonna try to turn back time, just so we can leave together.......
Me: *looking down*......
Italy: Are you.....okay?
Me: *so quiet that no one hears me* it's a load of bullshit...
Italy: What did you say....?
Me: IT'S ALL A LOAD OF BULLSHIT!!!!!
*Everyone gasps at this*
Japan:......A-and why would it be bullshit(uncomfortable saying that word)..?
Italy: *just stares in shock but listens*
Me: All this time....All of this fucking time! You've been telling us that we should all stick together, and leave together...but now, you just want to actually die, just to get us out but not you?! THAT'S FUCKING RIDICULOUS!! .......What do you want?
Italy: ....W-what... did you say?
Me: *goes up to him, and is now all up in his face, looking like I'm about to punch him, but no one stops me* What the fuck do you want?(clearly, I'm pissed out of my wits right now) Do you want to leave with us? Or do you want to die while we leave, knowing that the whole world will be totally sad that the lovable, one and only North Italy Veneziano, is *darkly voice right here* dead?
Italy: *still too shocked to say anything* ..........
Me: *tears up, voice breaking* Fine...JUST FUCKING FINE!!!!!! *runs to the safety room. Slams door*
England: J-jornelle! Wait! Come back!
*everyone runs after me while Italy, too shocked to speak stays in his spot. Germany stays behind to say a few things*
Germany: I know... she surprised all of us with that sudden outburst. But you gotta admit... she is right. And you do need to make a choice, do you want to leave with us, or do you want only us to leave... while you're dead...?
Germany: *sighs* We'll be waiting for your answer...I just hope you make the wise one. *pats back goes to door* We'll be waiting for you....*shuts door*
Italy: *falls to his knees* *thinking* Jornelle...?How long was all that bottled up inside? I didn't even know you were able to get that angry....I'm sorry...I'm so so sorry, that I made you angry....*starts to cry*
the dream didn't end yet, there's still more to come!